I am planning to have a “day” for myself once every month. Obviously, it would be eat, pray, love day! Sounds corny and stupid, I know.
But I will try to be one, for a change.
Unlike my friend Julia, I will be exploring Manila only.
And if I have the financial capacity, time, courage, and beauty, my next stop would be the Visayas area, then Mindanao, then Manila again. Haha.
I hope I can make it.
Wish me luck.
Leia Mais…“Sam” has been my apple of the eye for four years. I have many crushes in the office but I always come back to him. He is irreplaceable, to say the truth.
It all started when I was waiting for a friend who went to the comfort room. I was standing patiently when I saw this regular guy. When his eyes met mine, the world seemed to hold its breath. I can’t explain how. I just felt that it stopped spinning.
We became friends, thanks to “Rosa Mia.” At first, it’s hard for me to make an interaction with him. I’m not used to talking with my crushes. I try to be as calm as possible when I’m with him. But I failed big time. I can’t help but express what I felt. He wasn’t that shocked; my friends were.
Loving him makes me forget the difference between right and wrong.
For many times, I have been very vocal of my feelings toward him. I have been giving him special treatments, thinking that he will do the same for me.
But I was wrong. My feelings were not reciprocated.
I can’t force him to feel “something” for me. He can’t offer me the things I want, for I am just a friend. No more, no less. I should be contented with that.
I know that it’s hard to accept that truth. But I will try.
In time, I know I will.
Leia Mais…
Seriously, before, I don’t know the meaning of a “free soul.” Those words for me don’t exist, at least in a daily conversation. But one time, as I was watching a TV program (I can’t remember the show), a gay comedian was asked if he was not afraid of growing up, of not having a partner. Surprisingly, he said that he was not. He was not even thinking of finding a partner. He was happy on his own. And he exclaimed that gays are free souls, that they are meant to be alone, and that they are free to wander.
I couldn’t get it at first. I thought that there’s a soulmate for everyone, as Natasha Bedingfield said in her song “Soulmate.” That regardless of what and who you are, there is someone meant for you.
Or so I thought.
When you think of it, there are people who have partners, are married, and are single. Homosexual and heterosexual relationships are everywhere. Some single people are happily living. Some singles are actively looking for someone, some are not.
These made me think. Maybe the reason we are what we are right now is because of the choices we make in the past. Those people who have partners choose to have them. Some singles choose to be as such because they simply want it.
And for now, I choose to be a free soul.
Free to live, to wander, and to mingle.
Free to be me.
